You Never Are

So I have a new favorite singer/artist/musician...whichever title you prefer...

Francesca Battistelli! 

 

Daniel gave me one of her cd's forever ago (I think...actually it could have been someone different come to think of it...and with that statement, I just gave away the fact that I don't really keep up with music...much to the chagrin of my husband...I'm pretty sure he doesn't like to claim me as his wife when it comes to my knowledge of music and media.)

Anyway, I've been listening to her on Spotify...something Daniel showed me...obviously. Her lyrics are so incredible and she's just so fun to listen to! And I'm sorry for ending that sentence with a preposition. And starting these sentences with 'and.' Don't tell my 3rd graders.

Ok, on to the point. God has really been working in my heart over the last six months. I mean, some serious cleaning out. I feel like a new person. Maybe I'll write about it one of these days... So, I heard this particular song by Battistelli and it not only made me think of myself, but so many others who think they're just too far gone for the Lord to pick them up. Oh how wrong we are. How so very wrong.

"You Never Are"

Lost your way and you don't know how it happened

so much time you wasted chasing satisfaction

seems like there's no where else to go please i wish that you would come home

Oh don't be so afraid

you think that you're too far

but you never are you never are

so scared that you're too late

too hidden in the dark

but you never are you never are

Grace is under estimated all you ever really have to do

is take it God is bigger than the times we fail

so why can we not forgive ourselves

Oh don't be so afraid

you think that you're too far

but you never are you never are

so scared that you're too late

too hidden in the dark

but you never are you never are

You will never be perfect oh but you're still worth it you've gotta just believe

Oh don't be so afraid

you think that you're too far

but you never are you never are

so scared that you're too late

too hidden in the dark

but you never are you never are 

God can't work in our present if we haven't let Him work through our past. So often we try to forget the past and live for today when God designed our past to work for our present and our present to work for our future. They're all knit together. Let it go and take Jesus' hand. He'll walk with you. He is the Alpha and the Omega after all. The God of the beginning and the end. Your beginning. Your end.

Megan 

Journey

Our journey has begun.

Monday night we went to an adoption fundraiser for Covenant Care, an adoption agency. The food was SO good and the speaker was Dan Cruver...one of our FAVORITE adoption advocates. We were blessed to meet him at an adoption conference we attended this past August and Monday night we Daniel got to talk with him again.

Anyway, during dinner I noticed I had a missed call and didn't recognize the number. At the end of the evening we stopped at Starbucks where I let Daniel go in to buy our drinks for us. I was happy to wait in the car. While waiting I remembered about the missed call so I checked, and sure enough, I had a voicemail. I had a fleeting thought that it would be so cool if it was our social worker calling with some kind of news. What news I have no idea since she hasn't even mailed us our Home Study (we should get it within a week-and-a-half though!). So you can imagine my surprise when I hear, "Hi Megan, it's L.."

Then, imagine my surprise even more when she says, "Listen, give me a call back. I have a possible baby I want to talk to you about."

WHAT?!?

I could see Daniel through the window and I called his cell phone. He ignored didn't hear the phone! Of course!

So I told him the news and he, of course, didn't believe me. We decided to call her back even though it was late. The worst that could happen is she wouldn't still be in her office. The worst happened. Darn. That meant we had to wait.

...and wait...and wait...and wait. We didn't hear from her until Wednesday!! (She had been out of the office.)

Anyway, turns out she sent our profile to another Bethany office. A birthmother was looking at it but between Monday night and Wednesday, she chose another family.

WE CAN'T BELIEVE IT!!!! Everything we have worked for is actually real. Up until this point, it's sort of just been this far off idea or possibility...not really reality. Now it's reality and it's SO exciting!

We can't wait to get that phone call that says "she picked you!" We're not disappointed or anything about this past week...we were so shocked that it even happened...it was so fast!! Bethany just got our profile a week ago and doesn't even have our Home Study completely finished!

So yes, our journey has officially begun. No more paperwork and classes. No more interviews. No more spending a gazillion hours on a profile book. Now we wait. God is sovereign. We can't wait to see what's next.

Megan

This was us when we got the email on Christmas Day 2010 saying we had been "officially accepted into the Domestic Infant Adoption Program."